I am owned by death & I'm in love with oblivion

Goon Moon - I Know Where you live

Wave my weary hands around. But I know I’m not like you. Days go by. I sit around and thinking. Wonder why. I’m glad I got away from you. I won’t forgive…

…For all we could have done and all that could have been…

.endless.

Loneliness is a good adviser at the heart.
She merely broke my heart not my entire life,
my heart felt not so much broken as just… empty.
When you lose all your feelings, life is something that bores.
The death of flesh …breaking and mending,
tending over nothingness.
Do I have to crawl?

Am I going to spend the night with oblivion?

I’m full of nothing…


Adam.

"I will tell you what I will do and what I will not do. I will not serve that in which I no longer believe, whether it call itself my home, my fatherland, or my church: and I will try to express myself in some mode of life or art as freely as I can and as wholly as I can, using for my defence the only arms I allow myself to use – silence, exile, and cunning."

- A portrait of the Artist as a young man.- James Joyce

"Life asked death: why do people love me, but hate you?
Death responded: because you’re a beautiful lie and I’m a painful truth."

Every living creature on earth dies alone… love is in vain.

…our bleeding hearts are thriving.

It’s difficult to say that I turn into something that doesn’t exist , this not a reborn, I’m just trying to transform. It seems I am always making of myself both altar and sacrifice. I’m not trying to be resurrected again (by someone). I’m no longer to waiting for nothing, I am now empty. I have sterilized myself.
I want to be who I knew I could be. This is what I like and I just need to continue everyday. I am with what I make.

I’m not living, I don’t need more excitement,… now I’m here with no expectations. I’m waiting for nothing… nevermore. I am shifting. I had to pull someone else apart.
Lies, games, hypocrisy, you can break down all what is around me but you´ll never see me fall apart. Do I look like a liar? I´m not like you, I´m not like them, I´m not from your world and this place doesn´t belong to me.

I lost all my feelings.

Love is dead meat.

4dam.

I believe in ghosts, they’re more real than the people around me these days… How sad it is being in love with a ghost from the past.

Adam.